Forgive My American

So my 29th birthday is here and I am ready to put this year behind me. I must say that I have had a mighty tough year and that many mistakes were made. As good friends keep reminding me though, mistakes are good as long as you learn from them. So, have I learned from them? Wait and see is the best advice I can give anyone on that matter. As part of my year to be forgotten, I have had many ups and downs. At times I thought everything was going to be alright only to regress back into the ass that got me into this mess. Birthdays and new years always seem like a good time to make dramatic life changes, so I will try and take advantage of this and jump start my journey to become myself once again. If this past year has taught me anything, it is that we all really do reap what we sow. I made some horribly selfish choices during my downward spiral and let others get caught up in my path of self destruction. I have apologized to those involved, but only my future actions hold the power of redemption. The stain that my behavior has left on my reputation will not be easy to wash away, but I feel like I am making steps in the right direction. Hopefully I will be able to look back on my 30th next year and actually be able to smile about the year I had.  A really big thank you to my good friends who put up with my fuckery for the past year and somehow didn’t openly hate me. A sincere apology once again to those I hurt. A swift kick in the ass for me for allowing myself to lose sight of what was really important.